This year, I promised myself that I will find out what i really want to do with my life. My current job is okay, I'm just not sure if it's what i really want or if I want that as a career. I mean, it's okay. i learn a lot, it's dynamic and exciting and there's stability... there's just one thing... I'm not passionate about it. It's mostly... blah. But come to think of it, is it possible to find a career that I can be passionate about without sacrificing financial security? From what i can see, it's very rare that people find a job that they really love and enjoy.
I know that in order for me to excel in something, my heart must be in it one hundred percent, otherwise, I end up being mediocre, and we all know mediocrity is bad. It's a waste.
Thus the need for me to find out what I really want to do with the rest of my life.
Yes, I am incoherent.
i need a break. it's only the second week of the year and i'm already exhausted and stressed. my stress level is insane! and it's not like school where you have a hell month and then after you go on a break and get away from it all. but not at work, there are no sem breaks. no summer breaks... all you get are weekends.. but two days in a week? not enough!
i need to get away from it all...
Ito yung mga rare times na nato-touch yung heart ko and medyo nagkakahope ako for the human race.
Posted by Mike on Dec 26, '08 10:06 PM
Meet Meliton Zamora, a retired University of the Philippines janitor and my hero.
For forty-five years, he swept floors, cleaned up trash, watered plants and did odd jobs at the University.
I met him when I was active with the UP Repertory Company, a theater group based (then) at the third floor lobby of the Arts & Sciences (AS) building. He would sweep and mop the hallway floors in silence, venturing only a nod and a smile whenever I passed him.
Back then, for me he was just one of those characters whom you got acquainted with and left behind as soon as you earned your degree and left the university for some big job in the real world. Someone whose name would probably ring a bell but whose face you'd have a hard time picturing. But for many UP students like me who were hard up and had a difficult time paying their tuition fees, Mang Mel was a hero who gave them the opportunity to finish university and get a big job in the real world.
The year was 1993 and I was on my last semester as a Clothing Technology student. My parents had been down on their luck and were struggling to pay for my tuition fee. I had been categorized as Bracket 9 in the recently implemented Socialized Tuiton and Financial Assistance Program (STFAP). My father had lost his job and to supplement my allowance, I worked part time as a Guest Relations Officer at Sam's Diner (back when the term GRO didn't have shady undertones) and took some odd jobs as a Production Assistant, movie extra and wardrobe mistress.
To be eligible for graduation, I had to enroll in my last three courses and pay my tuition fee. Since my parents didn't have enough money for my matriculation, I applied for a student loan hoping that my one of myHome Economics (HE) professors would take pity on me and sign on as a guarantor for the student loan. But those whom I approached either refused or were not eligible as guarantors. After two unsuccessful weeks of looking for a guarantor, my prospects looked dim, my future dark. And so, there I was, a downtrodden twenty year old with a foggy future, crying in the AS lobby. I only had twenty four hours left to look for a guarantor.
Mang Mel, with a mop in hand, approached me and asked me why I was crying. I told him I had no guarantor for my student loan and will probably not be able to enroll this semester. I had no hopes that he would be able to help me. After all, he was just a janitor. He borrowed my loan application papers and said softly, "Puwede ako pumirma. Empleyado ako ng UP." He borrowed my pen and signed his name. With his simple act of faith, Mang Mel not only saved my day, he also saved my future.
I paid my student loan the summer after that fateful day with Mang Milton and it has been 15 years since then. I am not filthy rich but I do have a good job in the real world that allows me to support my family and eat three meals a day. A few weeks ago, a friend and UP Professor, Daki, told me that Mang Mel recently recorded an album which he sells to supplement his meager retirement pay, I asked another friend, Blaise, who's taking his Master's degree at UP to find out how we could contact Mang Mel. My gesture of gratitude for Mang Mel's altruism has been long overdue. As fate would have it, my friend saw Mang Mel coming out of the shrubbery from behind the UP library, carrying firewood. He got Mang Mel's address and promised him that we would come over to buy his album.
Together with Blaise and my husband Augie, I went to pay Mang Mel a visit last Sunday. Unfortunately, he was out doing a little sideline gardening for a UP professor in Tandang Sora. We were welcomed into their home by his daughter Kit. As she pointed out to a laminated photo of Mang Mel on the wall, she proudly told us that her father did retire with recognition from the University. However, she sadly related to us that many of the students whose loans Mang Mel guaranteed neglected to settle their student loans. After forty-five years of service to the University, Mang Mel was only attributed 171 days of work for his retirement pay because all the unpaid student loans were deducted from his full retirement pay of about 675 days. This seems to me a cruel repayment for his kindness.
This is a cybercall to anyone who did not get to pay their student loans that were guaranteed by Mang Mel. Anytime would be a good time to show Mang Mel your gratitude.
Mang Mel is not asking for a dole out, though I know he will be thankful for any assistance you can give. So I ask those of you who also benefited from Mang Meliton's goodness or for those who simply wish to share your blessings, please do visit Mang Mel and buy his CD (P350 only) at No. 16-A, Block 1, Pook Ricarte, U.P. Campus, Diliman, Quezon City (behind UP International House) or contact his daughter Kit V. Zamora at 0916-4058104.
eh yung excited na ako mag UP Fair!
hahahahahaha. Come on!
from the album: Kamikazee
It never even crossed my mind
That I would fall in love with you
You were always there behind me
But I never looked that way
Friends are friends I looked at them
Nuthing more & nuthing less
Familiar things you say & do
Seems so strange its not like you
It never even crossed my mind
that I would fall in love with you
You were always there behind me
But I never looked that way
Funny things that made me laugh
Is when I think about the past
I never saw it coming
When I turned around & you were there
I learned today
That I need you more each day
Grab on to you
Don’t ever let go
Marami nang beses na natanong ako kung ano ang theme song namin ni Dimple. Ito yun. Weird man at hindi mushy at sweet, ito talaga yun eh..totoo naman. Ganyan din kasi ang relationship namin. :p Hahahaha.
Ikaw, oo, ikaw..mahal kita.
January 1, 2009
“Babye na, aalis ka na..babye na rin ba sa ating alaala?”
*Babye Na by Rivermaya
It is an understatement to say that twenty-oh-eight has been one hell of a year. 2008 was like a rollercoaster. A LOT of things happened and changed this year-some good, others, bad.
Browsing through my old planner/journal, I saw my resolutions/plans for 2008. I said that in the year 2008, I will…
I did it! I finished our thesis and completed all my requirements!
April 25, 2008- School of Economics Graduation
April 27, 2008- University Graduation
2. Find a job
I really thought that I’d have a hard time finding a job and my other entries are a testament to that. Turns out, I was worrying over nothing. Barely out of college and the employers are already knocking. (Thank you, UP!) I got accepted even before I actually graduated. (Yay, me!) BTW, on the day of graduation my dream job came knocking, unfortunately, I already said yes to the other job, the one I have now. No regrets though, I’m happy where I am (for now).
May 5, 2008- First Day
3. Smile more.
I am smiling more. Getting out of college and in a whole new environment forced me to smile again and embrace my cheerful self.
4. Be more optimistic
Hmm, I don’t know about this one. Rusan did comment two nights ago that I’m a glass half ful person, although I’m still not so sure about that.
5. Stay away from sweets.
Haha. What do you think? Nevermind.
6. Spend more time with my friends.
I think this one I actually accomplished but its still not enough!
7. Write more.
Unfortunately, I wasn’t able to do this. I simply had no time. I did finish a Sicat-nominee thesis, does that count? (Haha, yabang. :p)
8. Be a better girlfriend.
Dimple, what do you think?
9. Be HAPPY
I am happy! I’m happier, I think. It’s not that I wasn’t happy in 2007, it’s just that the entire time that I’m in college, I made a choice not to feel, Weird, I know, but the point is, I am a happier person now.
10. Save money.
So, I finished my thesis, graduated, got a job and became happier but what else happened in 2008?
1. Fourth anniversary-May 28, 2008
2. BA 161 continuation
I’d rather not elaborate.
3. Found new friends.
I found my family at work and I lovelovelove them. Guys, you know who you are, thanks for keeping me sane. Hahaha. You know what I’m talking about. :p
A lot of things happened in 2008 that I can’t possibly put them all here.
In conclusion, 2008 was a good year.
“Whatever tomorrow brings, I’ll be there with open arms and open eyes.”
*Drive by Incubus
I will not put my plans for 2009 here for fear of jinxing it.
Good riddance, 2008! Thanks for everything.
I don't get to listen to them anymore so it's so great that there's this.
1. Pig Stuffed Toy na microbeads ang laman sa SM Dept. Store
2. Dog Stuffed Toy sa It's Cool! microbeads din ang laman.
1. Parker Pen (preferably plain na silver)
2. Book: Can you keep a secret?
1. PS I love you
2. Stuffed Toy na styro beads uyung laman
3. Stuffed Toy na Dog
1. Neri and Ryanna are not going to join anymore, so kung nabunot niya sila, please pick again.
2. Size 7 si Janette.